Crazy (not) in love

I think I might be a little insane. I'm definitely an over thinker. Lets face it this blog wouldn't exist if I wasn't.

But what has recently brought my sanity into question has been my research into my new show 'Love Letters and Other PointlessScribbles.' Most of the questions I have asked people have been met with in-depth stories,and 'Oh my gosh I know exactly what you are talking about' and more than one person has then ended by asking my advice on something.

I guess when you put yourself out there as open to talk about your own heart break and relationships people think you must have a really healthy outlook and therefore a little perspective about these things. I'd like to think that to, and admittedly I am the friend people come to for advice (they don't call me Mother Bear for nothing) and I revel in that, however, one question I've been asking people has been met by pretty blank faces.

What do you wish you could say to that person that broke your heart?

This is a fairly open ended question. It could be anything from the quick witted response you wish you'd come out with in THAT fight to telling some one that you miss them.

I don't believe for one minute that when I asked people this question the answer doesn't pop into their heads straight away. But they didn't want to tell me, or maybe, they didn't want to admit it to themselves.

And yet here I am, basically making a whole show because something went unsaid.

But then in a lot of ways this show isn't about having my heart broken but about how I came to fix it. Maybe not everyone else is at that point yet. Maybe admitting that some thing went unsaid is admitting that for you it isn't over.

Or maybe I'm just insane, but I'm going to think of it as being too 'zen' not necessarily for my sake but for those people that have told me I'm brave for putting myself out there in a way that makes me think everyone who has had their heart broken is hoping that one day they will to get to this point too.

Personally I'm looking forward to having the zen pulled out from underneath me, to being so overwhelmed in love that it completely clouds my perspective on everything.

But not until after I have finished this show, that, would be crazy. 

Why am I even typing? She always says it better...